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The REALLY STUPID GameWell, guess what? My sister just heard on the news that the Cowboys actually won the game. Apparently, the Redskins kicked a field gold that went outside (I remember thinking it was out when I saw it), but the Refs didn't call it. So, according to the news the 'Boys actually won. SWEET! THE Stupid Game
I am out hunting for:
I am also looking for a good recipe. I am NOT a good loser. And that's ALL God will let me say out of everything I'd LIKE to say. END OF SUBJECT. Big SurpriseI got a huge surprise in the mail today. My first disability hearing has been set for October 21st. This after all the times my attorney said we should definitely not expect it until after the first of the year! Of course, I have no idea if I'll win at this hearing, or not, but I sure have hope. If I lose, it's supposed to take another year for our appeal to be heard at a higher court.
I shouldn't have been surprised when I got the notice today, considering my earlier blog about healing the rift between the other side of the family & taking responsibility for the whole thing. Afterall, God's Word tells us to make things right with others & then we will be blessed. He knew I was serious the other day when I repented from my sin of harboring ill will toward my family & realized the whole thing was my fault to begin with. And look how He's rewarded me!
He was definitely behind that phone call I received that forced me to take a good long look at the situation & come to my senses.
We serve an awesome, powerful, merciful, loving God, who does indeed perform miracles if we trust him & follow Him. This was my proof that He does indeed have His hand on my life. I cannot praise Him enough, although I continue to try.
AnnouncementMy son, Danny & his girlfriend, Keri
are now officially
engaged!
They will wait until after the
first of the year to marry.
I already feel like she's part of my family.
(This is not the "first rodeo for either of them) P.S. To Last BlogPlease forgive the typos in that last blog. I knew I should have used Live Writer  Walking the Walk, Not Just Talking the TalkThis is a post that's painful, yet rewarding, for me to write. I'll try not to ramble forever. Any of you that have read my blogs since I came to Spaces & some of you that have only read a few of them, are bound to have noticed that there was a "rift" between me & another family member. I won't say which one because that's not the important thing. The fact is that the rift began when my financial stability started to dwindle at an amazing rate. And the rift was all my fault. As much as I dislike those who "talk the talk but don't walk the walk," that's exactly what I've been doing for the past nine months.
I was angry because I thought the "family" should jump in & help me out. And when they didn't, I allowed that to take over my heart. I prayed God would help me forgive them, yet I didn't realize until today that there really wasn't anything they needed to be forgiven for. You all know by now that I suffer from depression. What you probably don't know is how emotional I get on those days, or how overly-sensitive I can be on those days. Today one of my favorite family members sent me a very inspirational email, but instead of lifting me up, it made me mad. I took it has a "jab" against me. We exchanged a couple of emails & the family member finally called me. This was not the family member actually involved in the rift of my own creation. We talked for some time, with me bawling most of it (I do tend to get emotional) & afterwards, I sat here crying & praying. One thing I learned when my son died was that if God had been sitting right beside me at the time & all the months that followed, He would not have been able to comfort me because my emotions roared so loudly that I wouldn't have heard Him. That's apparently where I've been for the past nine months.
God has blessed me anyway by giving me a roof over my head & financial contributions from a few friends & my son. I've been doing my constant bible study, I've continued to pray. But until today, God had not gotten through to me. I do know it was God behind that email, that phone call, & the scripture I've posted today (under the "For Meditation") which I just happened to stumble across on someone else's page, quite by accident (I thought).
At any rate, God finally made me see that this whole rift was my own fault, not someone else's. I was so ashamed of myself I thought I'd never gather my courage enough to admit it here. But I knew that I should since I've mentioned my family in unfavorable ways here. Not only had I allowed my heart to harden against my family, but when I have one of those depressing, dark days (& only people who have truly known depression can understand this), I've found myself considering suicide seriously. I know better, geez I went through that with my son & as the person who called me pointed out, I know all the signs & symptoms & have devoted part of this Space to that very subject.....Preventing Suicide.
I was still "trying" to trust God, I was still learning from His Word, I was still praying regularly, but I was so depressed, hurt, emotional, hard-headed & that grain of faith that's smaller than a mustard seed was getting much harder to find under all of my emotional baggage, that I wasn't learning what God really wanted me to learn. It's only because of His loving mercy that He hasn't given up on me by now. I know I'm rambling (God isn't done with me yet), but I just can't find the words to tell you how ashamed of myself I was.
Finally, I sat down & wrote email to the original person I'd wronged & apologized for my words & actions & begged for that person's forgiveness. And of course, that family member forgave me, as I should have known he/she would if I'd been same during any of this mess of my own making. I am so thankful for that forgiveness, as well as God's. We do serve an awesome God & I cannot thank Him enough for giving me the family He has.
So, I was broken today, but I was also mended. I hope someone out there can learn something from these words & how easy it is to let emotions, fear, depression take over. We all need to be on guard constantly because Satan IS alive & well. I apologize for rambling on, but I have such a sense of or Lord right now & now that I've finished this painful post, I can take His hand now & keep enduring. It's no wonder He hasn't dug me out of this mess before now. In spite of my actions, He's continued to bless me. I look forward to Him leading the way again & I'm so glad He remained the same with me being so hard-headed!
Praise the Lord.
The CowboysHow 'bout them Cowboys? Another win. Beating those ol' Green Bay Packers on their own field. First time in 30 years we beat 'em on their own field.
Makes us 3 & 0 to start off the season! Hey, Carol? What's the record for your Redskins so far?? Huh? LOL
Ihopewewinwhenweplaywashingtonori'mgonnahavetoeatalotofcrow! From the Innocence ProjectCountless prisoners around the country are seeking to overturn their wrongful convictions and regain their freedom. It’s impossible to know the exact number of innocent people behind bars in America, but the steady stream of cases in the media in which prisoners are seeking to overturn their wrongful convictions is certainly a sign that the system is broken. Here are stories on several cases that made news this week: More SurprisesI was getting really discouraged about the ol' financial status last week, so I prayed even harder Sunday night & cried out to God.
Monday I received another $100 anonymous money order from my friend, whoever he/she is. Today I received a very sizeable check but I'm not allowed to say who that was from. Sure gives me some breathing room.
God is so good about hearing His children when they cry out to Him. He's ever faithful, merciful & loving. As you can imagine I've spent most of today praising & worshipping Him.
Ain't God Good? The CowboysYep, how 'bout them Cowboys!!!!!! Beating the Eagles feels as great as beating the Redskins is going to feel. What do you think, Carol? LOL Heard it was a great game, although I didn't actually get to watch. For some dumb reason it was only on ESPN, none of the normal channels, & my rabbit ears don't pick up ESPN. I didn't find out who won until today!!! Of course, I KNEW who WAS GOING TO WIN, but I wanted the official score. Feels GOOOOOD! This & ThatIt's been an eventful week & it's not over yet! First of all, I've finally reached my last bottom dollar & will be signing up for Food Stamps next week. Never thought I'd see the day, but at least I didn't work 40 years for nothing. It only seems that way as my attorney says our first hearing before a judge on my Social Security Disability won't likely happen before the first of the year. I hope God works His plan for me soon & I don't end up on a street corner with my little tin cup trying to sing for donations. On the othe other hand, people might pay me to shut up cuz I never could carry a tune in a bucket. LOL There, I've spilled my guts in front of a live audience. A family member told me this week that he/she could not understand how I could put all this stuff out there for the whole web to see. My answer? WHY NOT? My life has always been an open book. I may have things in my past or even my present that I'm not proud of, but I won't lie or try to cover it up. Maybe someone out there can learn from my mistakes. And I think everyone that doesn't already know about the sorry state of our Social Security System, definitely should know! Shame on me. There was more to that conversation but the rest doesn't apply here. I suppose most of you know that Ike is hitting the Texas coast hard & I hope all of my Friends here are safe & out of his path. We're supposed to start getting the winds in the morning & the heavy rain by Saturday night. Fortunately for me, I get to go housesit for Danny & Keri tomorrow while they go to a rodeo in Oklahoma. Which means I get to do my laundry free this time, a real plus these days. Plus I won't be stuck out here in my humble abode feeling it get rocked & rattled with the chance of the electricity going out. I'll be safe & sound in their house & won't have any trouble out there even if their electricity goes off. She has so many candles (and I do mean MANY) sitting around, I'll still be able to read a book if nothing else. One of my great-nieces called me yesterday. I haven't talked to her in almost a year, but she's the one that's going to take me to sign up for Food Stamps because I have no clue where the place is. Plus, she works at a movie theater here in town & is going to check into getting me a job there in the ticket booth. It'd be minimum wage but that's okay & I'd be able to sit down all the time without sitting erect in front of a computer, so my back wouldn't bother me. My other great-niece is having her 2nd baby Saturday. It took her 12 hours to get the first one here & I've been trying to talk her into not having it until Sunday, which is my birthday (and Jason's). Looks like that's not going to happen because they're inducing labor at 7 a.m. tomorrow. Also got a surprise visit from my grandson this afternoon. My landlord is his other "granny" & his mom came out to do some painting for her. He doesn't know I'm housesitting the rest of the weekend, but he's spending the weekend at his mom's anyway. At least I got to see the little bugger (little? He's taller than me). I think Danny was planning on taking me out to eat Sunday when they get home, for my birthday. I told him I'd rather have the cash. I figure if we're still getting the heavy rain from Ike he'll change his mind pretty quick. And that's it from Texas Eyes' Territory for the time being. Hope all of you have a great weekend. My ApologiesI want to apologize to any of my Spacer friends who may have noticed an obscene picture on my Friends List. I normally visit a person's site before I accept their invitation to be a Friend. I do remember logging on & seeing an enormous amount of email in my inbox one night & several were Friend Invites. I just accepted the lot of them because I was in a hurry & figured I'd go visit their site when I had more time. Unfortunately, I missed one. Most of the pictures on our Friends list are so small you have to look really close to see what they are. LOL I didn't look close enough to realize I'd welcomed a nude lesbian. Someone (I suppose in my family) told my sister who emailed me (apparently we no longer speak on the phone). Now, I'm not saying yea or nay to the fact that this was a lesbian, but I'm not having nude pictures posted anywhere on this site & should be shot at sundown for not looking at that one closer.
Hopefully none of you noticed. But if you did, I wish you'd messaged me & asked about it! So, I'm sorry if anyone saw the picture & thought I was wacko! I almost am, but not completely.......yet. Although, if I told you what happened the last time my son had me come out & teensit the grandson, you'd think I didn't have any brain left at all. In fact my sister & I used to share a brain....finished each other's sentences, answered the same way at the same time, etc. We no longer do that, so I guess I have all of my brain back now. For all the good it does me! Men vs. WomenThis one is dedicated to Detective Jake....you'll have to go read his blog to see why!
NAMES -
If Laurie, Linda, Elizabeth & Barbara go out for lunch, they will call each other Laurie, Linda, Elizabeth & Barbara.
If Mark, Chris, Eric & Tom go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla, Peanut-Head & Scrappy.
EATING OUT -
When the bill arrives, Mark, Chris, Eric & Tom will each throw in a $20, even thought it's onbly $32.50. None of them will have anything smaller & none will actually admit they want change back. If the women go out to lunch, when the bill arrives, out come the pocket calculators.
MONEY -
A man will pay $2 for a $1 he needs. A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item sh doesn't need, but it's on sale.
BATHROOMS -
A man has 5 items in this bathroom: a toothbrush, shaving cream, razor, bar of soap & a towel from the Marriott.
The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify most of these items.
ARGUMENTS -
A woman has the last word in any argument. Anything a man says after that....he's begging for a new argument.
CATS -
Women love cats. Men say they love cats, but when women aren't looking, men kick cats.
FUTURE -
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
SUCCESS -
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend. A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
MARRIAGE -
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't. A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change & she does.
DRESSING UP -
A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the garbage, answer the phone, read a book & get the mail. A man will dress up for weddings & funerals.
NATURAL -
Men wake up as good looking as they went to bed. Women somehow deterioerate during the night.
OFFSPRING -
Ah, children. A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favorite foods, secret fears, hopes & dreams.
A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.
THOUGHT FOR THE DAY: Any married man should forget his past mistakes. There's no use in two people remembering the same thing!
The Death PenaltyI have a very serious question for you. Take your time & consider this very carefully. Give your answer either "yes" or "no." You can explain your answer if you wish, but please, no fence straddlers here.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE DEATH PENALTY?
If the person on death row was YOU or your son/daughter, mother/father???
What if someone else killed your son/daughter/mother/father???
Whatever your answer, it should be the same for an unknown killer, as for your immediate family. It should be the same for the rights of an unknown victim, as for your immediate family.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE DEATH PENALTY??? No qualifiers here such as, "I wouldn't want the death penalty if they'd go to prison with no chance of parole," or "I believe in the death penalty for cop killers or child molesters."
It's all or nothing. DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE DEATH PENALTY? COULD YOU "pull the switch" or "make the injection?"
A simple "yes" or "no." Sign My GuestbookFor all of you who have been here before & signed the old Guestbook, please take the time to sign the new one! My Space is constantly under construction. I change things, delete things, & add things. Sorry for the inconvenience....but please sign it once more! 100 Facts About MeTexas Eyes' 100 Facts About Me
1. I'm 5' 2" & vertically challenged according to the weight/heigth chart in my doctor's office
2. I'm always on a diet
3. I love to read
4. My favorite authors are J. A. Jance, John Grisham, Maeve Binchey, Ann Rivers Siddons, James Patterson, Harlan Coben, Nelson DeMille
5. My favorite music is C&W
6. I also like gospel, some pop, some classical, some opera, & raggae
7. I hate heavy metal
8. I don't like rap music
9. I like to write poetry
10. My favorite C&W singers are Brooks & Dunn, Alan Jackson, Toby Keith, Dwight Yokum, Willie Nelson
11. Non-C&W singers I like are Celine Dion, Elton John, John Starnes
12. Favorite movies of all time are Shawshank Redemption, Beaches, Driving Ms. Daisy, Gone With the Wind
13. I watch American Idol without fail
14. Favorite TV shows are Grey's Anatomy, Men in Trees, Brothers & Sisters
15. I drink Diet Coke
16. I have 2 sons; one here & one in Heaven
17. I have 1 grandson
18. I have one sister
19. I had an older brother but he only lived a few hours
20. Both of my parents are dead
21. Both sets of grandparents are dead
22. I miss my Mother every single day
23. My sister & I used to be best friends
24. I had a stepfather I truly admired & respected
25. I was born in Stephenville, Texas
26. Other Texas towns I've lived in are Joshua, Cleburne, Fort Worth
27. I was born with a club foot & had to wear braces
28. I didn't learn to walk until I was 18 mos. old & the braces were only worn at night by then
29. I've had lots of casts on that foot
30. I went to the Scottish Rite Hospital for Crippled Children
31. I used to have a bad temper
32. I also used to be very bashful & shy
33. I have a friend I met in first grade & who is still my best friend
34. I lived with my maternal grandparents my Junior & Senior years
35. I take anti-depressants
36. For several years I belonged to a particular chat group on AOL. We had parties in Fort Worth & some of those friends flew in from Alabama,
Illinois, New York & other states so we could meet in person.
37. My favorite foods include fried shrimp, lobster, steak, Italian & Mexican
38. My favorites desserts are my sister's lemon pie with graham cracker crust & her pecan pie
39. I've researched my Daddy's ancestors
40. I've researched my sons' father's paternal ancestry & published a book about them
41. Before we had PCs I could type 100 wpm with 3 errors on an IBM Selectric typewriter, but I kept breaking it because it couldn't keep up with me
42. There were only 54 kids in my graduating class
43. I attended my 40th class reunion 2 years ago
44. I am permanently & totally disabled according to 2 doctors
45. I suffer from chronic insomnia
46. I have severe depression with a "guarded" diagnosis according to 2 psychologists
47. I believe in God & His Son, Jesus Christ
48. I do lots of Bible Study
49. I pray off & on all day long for the people on my prayer list
50. Other states I've visited include Alabama, Arkansas, California, Georgia, part of Kentucky, Louisiana, Maryland, Michigan, Missouri, Nevada,
North Carolina, Oklahoma, South Carolina, Tennessee, Virginia, Washington D.C.
51. I've been just across the border into Canada
52. When I was 7 months pregnant with my 2nd son, I took my 3 year old & flew (for the first time) all the way to Michigan to spend a week with a
penpal I'd never met before.
53. I like to fish, mainly for bass
54. My Daddy used to take me dove hunting, but I had to be the bird dog for him
55. My parents divorced when I was 7 years old
56. I used to catch the Greyhound bus & ride to Fort Worth to spend weekends with Daddy
57. Daddy also took me to live wrestling matches
58. He also took me to the Cabana Lounge (a beer joint) because I loved their hamburgers, he loved the beer & I played shuffleboard with the other
drunks
59. I admired & respect my Mother more than anyone in the world.
60. My all time favorite book was "Gone With the Wind"
61. I used to love watching "Peyton Place" & "Dallas" when they were tv series
62. I like to watch "Nanny 911" to see what problems today's parents have because they don't believe in spanking
63. I spanked my kids & they never behaved like the brats on "Nanny 911"
64. I now live out in the boonies in a one-room "cabin" where no one from my family (other than my son & grandson) have been to visit
65. I have not seen my sister since October or November of last year, although we're only about 20 miles apart.
66. I drive a 2006 Toyota Rav4 that only has 5,300 miles on it
67. I have had 3 daughter-in-laws (one of them twice) & will most likely have another one before long (at least he marries 'em)
68. I used to love to crochet
69. I also used to love painting ceramics
70. I have approximately 90 santas that I painted
71. Most of my furniture (and all of my santas) is in storage
72. When my sister lived with me, while we were in the same chat room, we would type or questions, answers & comments to each other on
the screen although both our computers were in the same room. Even got used to referring to each other by our screen names in real life.
73. I once bought a very young cockatiel & taught him to say about a dozen different things
74. I have owned cocker spaniels, miniature shelties (very small Lassies), a Scottish Terrier, a German Shepherd that was a "reject" from the
Canine Dept. at the police force & my favorite - a Yorkie
75. I married 2 different men involved in law enforcement (not at the same time, however)
76. I love going to my grandson's football games
77. I had a great-uncle & aunt who were murdered & the killer was never found
78. My favorite tv shows & favorite books are True Crime
79. Ann Rule is my most favorite author
80. Neither of my husbands ever let me choose what kind of car I got
81. My first husband gave me a new wedding ring for our 10th anniversary, one week before he walked out
82. I was a Class Officer my first three years in high school
83. I had a part in our Junior Play
84. I was Valentine Sweetheart for my Junior class
85. I was on the Student Council my Junior year
86. I did not go on our Senior Trip & regret it to this day
87. My first boyfriend committed suicide
88. I had an uncle who commited suicide because he had cancer
89. I have a niece whose first husband committed suicide
90. My favorite uncle's wife committed suicide and my sister and I cleaned up the mess
91. My youngest son committed suicide while in the Navy
92. Before I was on all the meds I am now, my favorite alcoholic drink was a Bloody Mary or Red Beer
93. I smoke a pack of cigarettes a day
94. I have been unemployed for two years
95. I am waiting for the Social Security System to schedule my first disability hearing before a judge
96. My family & I are leasing mineral rights on some land we never knew our granddaddy had owned
97. I was saved & baptised at age 14
98. I learned what all that really meant & recommitted my life to Christ when I was 32
99. Both of my sons were saved at an early age, but they knew exactly what all that meant
100. I hate living alone. (Gee this was easier than I thought!) SpacesHelp. I'm becoming verrrrry frustrated with spaces.live. I can get everything on my space arranged the way I want it, I always "Save" each little thing I do. When I'm in edit mode, things are in one place. When I sign out everything is array. I've applied templates, I've added stuff to take up blank spots, altho spaces seldom lets me put things exactly where I want them to go. But still, when I get things arranged the way I want, the modules go where they want to be, instead of where I put them. Friends have told me the same thing; sometimes they come to my space and all is well, other times all is a mess.
Have any of you had this problem? Anyone have a solution? Pleeeeeze comment. |
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