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UpdateOkay, I haven't been here in awhile because Spaces messed up my log-in and wouldn't let me add a blog or edit anything on my space.
Also, I still suffer from suicide ideation and a couple of weeks ago my depression was so bad it scared me. Heeding my own warning, I had my on drive me to the hospital in Fort Worth & was going to check myself into the 10th floor where the rest of the mentally anguished live. However, after sitting there ALL day until I finally got to see a psychologist who changed my anti-depressant from Paxil to Prozac. She didn't think I needed to stay because I wasn't suicidal at the time & made me promise her that I'd come back if I started thinking about suicide again. Ok. Next time I'm that depressed I'm sure I'll feel like going back to the hospital & up to the 10th floor. During the time I was there, they did a modified strip search to check for dangerous items they could take away from me (including my cigarettes). Of course, they were also looking for bruises and scars and cuts which they didn't find. Then they put packing tape around my purse & my suitcase & took 'em away from me. Talk about depressing, geez. For all of this "service" including my 10 minute chat with the doctor (which took place in the waiting room) I got a bill for $700 +. Now THAT'S depressing!
A couple of days later I got a call from my attorney telling me my appeal is coming up finally. Apparently Social Security sent my case back to the Judge for HIS errors. He didn't consider my weight a contributing factor in my health condition and he did not believe I was suffering from severe depression, even though all the doctors do. So, they'll be sending me back to a doctor of their choice regarding my weight and who knows what else. At least the process is starting again and I'm going to try to remain positive about the results. Maybe my case won't be turned down this time! That in itself would be a 98% cure of my depression.
Another thing that's helping me is that one of my friends made me join Facebook. There are 5 or 6 of my friends on their who apparently keep Facebook open at work (tsk, tsk) where they can keep an eye on what we're all doing. No blogs, just notes from time to time and you can upload pictures. Makes me feel like I'm not completely alone and that I'm actually talking to someone other than myself. LOL Meanwhile, everyone in my "group" are playing Farmville there. We build our farms, plant stuff, harvest it for coins, shop at the market, plow our fields and try to accumulate items we need, like a pair of gloves to pull weeds with! We also take simple quizzes, send each other gifts & comment briefly about things someone in the group has said. There's almost always someone I know signed in. So if any of you are on Facebook, let me know. I use my real name there - Susan Curlee and I'd love to see any of you there.
That's about it for now, enjoying the rain we've been getting Praise the Lord. Just wish there were screens on my windows so I could sleep with them open, but that's minor.
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